The Velvety Darkness
It surrounded me like velvet, so soft. I did not see, not in the way humans see. Instead, I sensed, perceiving, tasting, smelling. I could not move but, I was not in any discomfort. There was something I was trying to remember.. oh yes, how, how did I get to this state of being?
My mind filled with thought, nothing that made sense to me, however, now there was an urgency. I needed something. I couldn't remember.
Inside my velvety darkness I started to hurt. Not sharp and definable, just a throb. A deep pounding, burning, churning my insides. I needed something.
I pushed myself to think, the thoughts making my head feel like it was going to split. A man was there, his eyes were like ebony, the light played in them and they mesmerized.
Had I loved him? No, still my need for him was great, my skin burned to touch his, he held me, he kissed me, he..stared at me.. I was afraid, why? And then.. thoughts, a memory. I knew what happened.
The realization made me angry, why had he done this to me. That urgent feeling, that memory, that realization made me queasy, I couldn't maintain my anger. I needed to get out, get out!
I was surrounded by velvet, the soft dark velvet.. of my casket..
